Little Elf

When something had happened, I'd think I gotta write about it. Good things or bad things, I'd just want to remember. I find myself going back to my dream journal, rereading them and remembering. As long as I could remember, I'd write. Why I'd stop writing? I'd say I'm too busy being a mommy, that it changed my life..

When I realized I could go for an international social work program for masters, I thought to myself how I forgot about my dream of traveling around the world. I put it aside when I had Jax, thinking I could not make it happen. Well, I mean, I can take Jax with me!! I stopped thinking "can't" for couple of weeks, boy good things does happen! I have unburied my passions.

Yesterday, it was one of the most sweetest days, we are having a wonderful Christmas spirit this year. It was because I changed my thinking, "no money, not a nice Christmas." Now that Jax is 4 and understanding the holiday, we talked about Santa and sharing presents and decorating the trees. I thought, ok let's do it (I was having a foul mood at the moment, so I allowed good thoughts time two). Early in the morning I had to drop off my car to the shop for tires change so Jax and I stayed in and baked the cookies for the maintenance men (who worked on my car for over two years) to thank them. We had some too! We then unpacked the last year's Christmas boxes and saw that I've been collecting ornaments but we had too tiny tree for them. So we went to Target's to buy a little bigger fake tree, as tall as Jax. With colorful taste, he got to choose the lights and ornaments. He would stop to admire the collections set of little villages; trains, houses, Santa, presents. He would walk around the store singing "Jingle Bells."

When we got home, we were excited to get started with decorating the tree.. but discovered that there was missing parts. But I did not turn into a Scrooge, haha. We had to go back to Target's and exchanged for other, we saw many Christmas lit houses on the way. It was after 8pm when Jax started to put up the ornaments to our little tree. He was perfect little elf. Finally, the star was set up on the top of the tree and we sat in the dark admiring our little Christmas tree!!

Little elf is a true believer, he said Santa is coming tomorrow and that it's going to snow...! He is right about one thing, it's snowing this morning!

Jen is married! She's now a Mrs. Hoochy!!

So much had happened since I got back to the fast lane... I Heart Massachusetts. I Heart Summer time. I Heart Jax who just turned 4... and I Heart Jen-n-Max's love and happiness. They just got married!!

And yeah I had my wisdom teeth removed..

Weather Report

Today:

Spartanburg, SC

A good deal of sunshine. Hot and humind. High 97

And it's gonna be 101 on Saturday... WHOO!

And I just had to check out..
Salem, MA
Cloudy skies, will become overcast. High 59

For a minute I was remembering how I long for a day like this. Especially during winter time when I was having a battle with winter blues. It's good to be home. I've been my most relaxed self, with nothing big and heavy running inside my head, and it's almost like I'm standing against the sign that says "Dead end." Because of that, I'm supposed to be vulunerable and willing to "face it" without hiding, so I'd write it alll out! That's right, I STILL have that paper to do. It's lingering on my mind but it's easily avoided.

Couple of months ago, Cuz Jen gave me this book by Pema Chodron, an American Buddhist nun, on "When things fall apart" (heart advice for difficult times). Rolling eyes, right, so I didn't open the book until last week. Seems like it's time of a year for me to read books like that, extactly last year I read "The 4 Leaves" (is that it?) and "The Secret." But this book mostly talk about meditation. Anyway I was only willing to read it so I'd open up and DO the paper! Life theories and my life stories, phissh.. It's gonna bite my ass or what.

We are already due back to New England next weekend. Alright, we are off to swimming pool with Aunt Darlene and Cousin Zac.. Get fried!!!

Mikey on Lisa Williams

Here's vlog on Mikey's side

Pensive me

While we bitch about gas and the soaring prices, it took almost $45 to fill up my little car. In 2001, when I first got it, it wasn't even $20. Cousin Jen and I wanted to meet over the weekend but decided not to... Because of gas prices. It's really interrupting from people coming together. Ain't stoppin' me from goin' to my mama's house for lil while (about a month).. Jax and I leaving to SC in couple of days..

My head is spinning.. Final exam this morning, things to do, dirty house, packing,.. and still not done wrapping up for the semester.

To Un-spin my head..

So yesterday was Mother's Day and I had to study, I missed Jax so I put my head to business. Like always, from what I learned in school, it give parrels to my everyday life and what's around me. For my woman and global course, I studied on India Gender Violence. And when I saw something on cnn website,there was an article on Good Moms/Bad Moms that the media displayed. You know how that is, it's giving Moms in the real world some kind of pressures... to be good/bad mom.

Alike with India dowry issues, the husband family wanting more prices from the bride family. Over time they are becoming overboard, burning their wives for a scooter (a disturbing case I've learned). I didn't mean to see this way today about Mother's Day, while not having Jax with me so I'd study for final, it felt weird not having him with me today. So I opened and un-horizon my perception about this, Mom's with high expectations to get pampered and spoiled is the same perception about Christmas coming from the kids, they want ipod and shit. Don't worry, Jax gave me something sweet from preschool and Lucas got me yellow roses (to apologize after the tough day I had) and miniature roses from neighbors (to apologize for barging in my house to turn off the fire alarm I didn't mind) all during the same week, heheh

The point is that, we can see the INCREASING expectations over time. In the past, the history showed that we never asked for too much back in the day. We were happy with simple and thoughtful things (without needing money). Or maybe it's just me from my background.

A Medium, her way of life among the dead

About a month ago, Mikey shared his experience when he went to the show and saw a medium. I was interested about his journey when I listened him out. Soon after, he decided to tag me along to his next show to see another medium. It's Lisa Williams, if you see her on lifetime channel. And yea, she talk with the dead people.

So last night we went and during the show, I was surprised on how she dealt with the dead people. Many of the spirits were tugging to get through her so that she could talk with their loved ones. I thought she dealt with them pretty good, for a person like herself with the special talent. She had them one at a time, able to find out which person from the audition of around 300 crowd. It was about 3 hours long, plus 15 minutes break, and I believe she got to talk about 7 or 8 group of people. She made a connection being the living and the dead, tried to help them to close the unfinished businesses. Most of time, the dead ones wanted to APOLOGIZE to the living ones, asking them to forgive them. Some asked them to let them go. And some just dropped by to say hello lo lo. I saw lots of love in the room though. At some point, it became emotional and I shred my tears with them.

After the show, Mikey and his friend Sheryl, also an interpreter Rachel (who offered to babysit Jax someday which was nice to hear), we were chillin in the lounge exchanging spiritual experiences and waited for two hours to get to meet Lisa. I drove Mikey and Rachel home which was 20 minute south from me and I got home after 2am. What a ride..

I cannot really type any further about my thoughts of this journey. Right now I'm having some serious exhaustion. I tend to feel very tired if I got to get to the higher level spiritually, and then, back to the earth, I pretty much crash deep. I'll get back to this...

Re: A Day in the Life of a Deaf person

Professionals,

It started last week when I became sick with what I thought was simply a sinus/chest infection. I though I caught it from taking care of my son who was also sick. My doctor couldn’t see me on Friday so they put me off until Monday. However there was still no interpreter at my Monday appt. She and I had a short pen-n-paper conversation and she
quickly made a referral for me to go to emergency dentist appointment the next day. I was not clear about Tuesday appointment only being consult, not the surgery, so I already rearranged childcare and emailed professionals and canceled interpreters on Wednesday. After long day Tuesday I came to understand it was only a consult. I will have the actual surgery (all 4 wisdom teeth, not just two as I thought) in June. No interpreter at either emergency appointments, so naturally I was unclear about the reason for follow-up appointment.

Truly, I feel stupid for already telling everyone about the oral surgery plan. I feel confused about what’s proper way to deal with this situation.

This is just another example of miscommunication typical for deaf people. I hope this email give you a good idea of how frustrating it feels.

Lastly, I'm still sick with both sinus and dental infections. I can't eat yet but I'm on meds and hope to be better for final exams.

Thank you for listening,
Sara