Check, Check, Check..

We only got couple of days to enjoy ourselves until school starts again! Freedom from racing with the clock, I love it.

Jax and I been going to the beach enjoying the beautiful warm sun. He started to run towards the water! We got started with Jax's scrapbook for school (wanting to see Mikey!). We napped together like it will never ends. Jax start to stay on my side while I cook, he especially enjoy doing the dishes, hee hee!

I got started with the incomplete paper and I have until Tuesday to finish it! I know I said I was done with it but umm not really!

I posted on craigslist trying to sell Jax's clothes and toys, no luck so far! Mmm, not sure what else I'd do about that except wait'n'see..

I have not made a move to call the Doctor to have the cyst removed!

Oh I'll clean my car today. Jax and I'll go to Maine and join with Fatima and friends camping out!

I knew the Secret

I read this book, The Four Agreement. I felt like I knew all about it but not using the knowledge. Looking back now I laugh at myself for thinking so negative constantly. Of course, I need to change that thinking. I wonder why it's hard to know what I want, so it means I need to simplify my wants.

I want to have a comfortable lifestyle. I want to kick ass in school and graduate with 3.3 gpa or higher. I want to be happy. I want to be a loving person. I want to be healthy.... and so on.

So I watched the documentary movie, The Secrets. Again, I felt like I knew about them all along. I just don't use the knowledge or bother trying. Let me try again with my thinking..

I have money, I am comfortable, I am happy, I'm a loving mother and a friend, I have a wonderful life...

If you have not read the book or the movie I've mention, do it!!!

I'm soo inspired! I had a wonderful day at the beach, the sun was perfect and warm, the breeze was gentle hugging me for hours. It feel like I'm having this excited feeling, butterflies in my stomach. I forgot all about these good stuff. I won't be stressed stupid over what the society expects me to do. No more!!

I am done with the incompleted paper for History class! Yay!!!

To cut or not to cut... Things to Do..

So another doctor appointment today, I don't think antibiotics gave really improvements so the Dr said it's for sure it's cyst. She said it's up to me if I want the minor surgery but I don't have to (but it will always be there). I'll keep taking antibiotics until Friday to see what happens. It just sucks I cannot wear the bra, it would be soo uncomfortable and annoying. Well at least I had alone time since Friday between doctor appointments, I mean, I was really alone. I went to the beach, ate sushi, slept in and napped, read the book "The Dogs Who Found Me" and finished it. I cleaned the house, yeah yeah I know I know but I did. I just had to. I went to Farmer's Market and got some goodies for Jax to come home.

While driving around today I was stunned to see the change of colors on trees.. Yes, I saw ORANGE leaves on the tip of the trees. Oh no no no..

Well... Jax and I are free until September 5th. Oh what to do. I have some in mind I'd like to do..

Give away Jax's small clothes, baby toys, crib, brand new DVD I didn't know I had, maybe I'd make little extra cash..

Jax's school project, "All about me" and he also got boat and planes projects for his birthday it will be fun painting them and testing them out.

*I need to go to the book store and get Health book to see if I'd test out not needing to take that class. I also need to take the placement test! Ugh!*

Go to the beach as much as we can. Nap together. Cook together.

Apply to YMCA... again. I'd love to take yoga class..

Get rid of one year worth of empty beer and wine bottles, just that I had no idea where to recycle them..! They're eye sore in my hallway.

Scrapbook, maybe paint again, fix a photo book and make some Brag Book for the grandmothers, oh how about "Thank Yous" for Jax's birthday. How embarrassing I never do them.. Mikey!!!!

Clean my car for friggin's sake, it's got bird poops everywhere and inside the car it's practically beach.. it's sandy everywhere along with Fruit Loops cereal.

***Oh man I have an incomplete paper to do for my history class I was supposed to turn in last June. ***

I know for sure about one thing, by the time school starts if this stupid cyst is bothering me I'm gonna have them cut out.

Mmm... what else.. Well I won't finish everything on the list above anyway..

Bumpy Lumpy, what are you..

So I finally got to see a doctor yesterday about this weird bump, it's about one inch and reddish and a little hard inside. It's right under my right breast. It developed about 3 weeks ago, I first thought maybe it was a link to a lump I had inside my breast right after I breastfed (it happened twice). Dr said it could be either Sebaceous Cyst or Abscess, she gave me antibotics to take over the weekend. I'll see her again on Monday to see if there's any change. If no, I'll have a quick surgery. Yeeck.

Skin Cysts

Cysts are noncancerous, closed pockets of tissue that can be filled with fluid, pus, or other material.

Cysts are common on the skin and can appear anywhere. They feel like small peas under the surface of the skin. Cysts can develop as a result of infection, clogging of sebaceous glands (oil glands), or around foreign bodies, such as earrings.

Abscess

An abscess is a tender, easily pressed mass generally surrounded by a colored area from pink to deep red. The middle of an abscess is full of pus and debris. Painful and warm to touch, abscesses can show up any place on your body.

Unlike other infections, antibiotics alone will not cure an abscess. In general an abscess must open and drain in order for it to improve. Sometimes draining occurs on its own, but generally it must be opened by a doctor in a procedure called incision and drainage.

Abscesses are caused by obstruction of oil (sebaceous) glands or sweat glands, inflammation of hair follicles, or from minor breaks and punctures of the skin. Germs get under the skin or into these glands, which causes an inflammatory response as your body's defenses try to kill these germs.

The middle of the abscess liquefies and contains dead cells, bacteria, and other debris. This area begins to grow, creating tension under the skin and further inflammation of the surrounding tissues. Pressure and inflammation cause the pain.

People with weakened immune systems get certain abscesses more often.

Gettin' over with...?

I am done with final exam. I have extra credit papers to do before Friday. I can't wait for this class to get over with. Jax is at Shannon's all day today and I'll have to pay her $70, I could not study a bit for the exam. It just sucks I'd have to pay a babysitter so I'd study, instead of doing something better... Like staying at the beach all the day....

Ugh I have this weird bump under my right breast. It's been 3 weeks and it's getting uglier, annoying, uncomfortable.. I could not move completely, I could not exercise (I tried to go for a walk two times a week when Jax was at camp!) or do the yoga (oh my back aches). I could not wear the bra and so yeah I'm been walking around with my swooshing boobs. I finally took in a courage and called a doctor, I will go in on Friday. Also I'll do the blood work to see what's up with my stomach acid, my calcium level being so low, etc.

Sooo Jax and I are free until school starts again in September. I can't believe I didn't make any plans.

In class..

I'm in class but wanted to sneak in here. My mom with red hair is here for 4 days, she's home with Jax. It's good having her but she's leaving early tmw morning... already! I got to know Salem few inches more by having her here. I am having some painting itches, of course, with her I feel like I need to paint. Been so long I'm out of touch that's for sure. Jax brought home his paintings, it looks like colorful Japanese writings with secret meanings and codes.

One more week of class. Jax last day at camp on Friday, we are invited to a pinic. Then we are free until September 6 when school starts again. Oh what to do.

I'm having Iced French Vanilla from Dunkin Donuts, it's 8:15pm I'm darn tired. I gotta watch the movie, The Monsoon Wedding for class. Been researching on why people get married. I need to do the paper on this, it was due last week.