Rotten

I feel like I've been a rotten bitch. Everything's rotten and I sucks with everything. I guess I keep my head above the water long enough that I'd start shallow some water. I feel like it's my fault for going out with girls earlier this month, going to the wedding and had some fun, etc that I'm fucked up with money thing all over again. I think I did good first half this year, though, careful and saving. Until I felt like we should go home SC, things started to slip away since then.

I feel like I suck, not having nothing good going on, not doing anything good, while I could do good. At school, I still never could finish TWO incompleted papers. Summer 1 class, Medical Ethics, I practically let my team do all the presentation work and the professor personally thanked me for sharing that she and the class learned a lot from me (diversity).

I feel like I'm not a cool momma anymore, I get frustrated about Jax's mischief ways. I think he's going through some power struggle with me to see who's the boss, how far he can go with doing his ways, etc but it's driving me nuts. So many time outs. I realized he's tied between being the baby and a big boy, he kept on stepping forward wanting to do the big boys things then taking 2 steps back wanting to be baby again. Old and new ways both at the same time. I guess that's ok I just forget to be extra patient sometimes that's all. He will start day camp tomorrow, that's exciting. That's one of many new changes we are seeing.

So no internet at my house still then my phone service got cut off as I could not pay the bill. I realized that $156 for first bill does not sounds right but I dunno. Jax and I were alone 4 days straight, no people, no cable tv, etc. I felt like we were so out of touch with the world. So we went over to Margo yesterday for a night.

Lucas got promoted and his schedule is rotten, he will not have same days off. So Jax will go over to Margo every other weekend. He will be with me Monday to Friday, which means I need to find someone to be with him Mon and Wed nights so I'd go to class. I thought I'd save me some money from paying for the daycare but now I gotta pay for the babysitter! Only if I'd find one.

Cuz Jen came over last weekend, of course it was great having her but Jax and I owe her couple of visits up in Vermont. She wanted out for a break, she wanted to wait for a place of her own before having us over. She and Rosey both are in love, it was crazy watching them stupid in love but it's all good. I'm happy for them. Which brings me to Lucas, we "met" 4 years ago last Friday and Jax is turning 3 this week Friday. Now that's crazy.

Here's some cool pictures from Jen's camera:





Peekaboo!


Sombra buggin' Sunny!


Sombra is very different than Sunny when she was kitten. He would want to cuddle and follows me..


Lastly, here's famous us cousins!