Thursday, November 29, 2007

Jumpin' over a rollin' barrier

Ok now what.

I was told by the person who tried to set us up with the speech therapist from Parent-Child Home Program that they cannot afford to pay the interpreter to come at our house twice a week (they will pay $200 weekly).

First, they asked to have an interpreter on the first meeting so we could communicate about what’s the plan and do the paperwork, etc. And then they will send the speech therapist who could sign, twice a week for half hour each.

For some reason I don’t agree with having just the speech therapist to come, her to communicate with both Jax and me, it’s not her specialization doing that.

I probably feel like I’d want to have an interpreter here, so that I can observe the speech therapist and Jax doing their thing on their own but at the same time I’m included. I want to know the new words so maybe later Jax and I can talk about it in ASL. So many new feelings and barriers about this one.

Who to talk with? Like I’d find the nearest deaf single mother similar with my position. I chat with two of my interpreter friends; boy don’t they have a lot to say. One of them is also a CODA, she does know how to bring up my mixed feelings and thoughts as a single deaf mom (her mother went through the same thing). They are really kickin’ my ass not to give in. I think I felt more twisted after the program said “nevermind” about having an interpreter on the first day, and thinking I’d do fine with the speech therapist (maybe they’re right but that’s why need an interpreter for first day to find out).

Thanks to Rosey for sharing but she sent me a link to Oslon Brothers vlog, they’re hearing brothers of deaf parents and it’s a RIOT watching their stories. I could not help it but thinking about Jax growing up as a CODA, I secretly hope he will have a time of his life… having the best and worst worlds (Deaf, Brazilian, America cultures).

Alright, right now, I will continue with this journey lookin’ for another options so we can chose the best way possible. Life is all about good chances!

1 comment:

Tai Tai said...

Must be fustrating for u with the interpreter situation.. I had interpreter everytime mat has a physical therapy, speech therapy and ot. Because therapist talk to child most of the time and I miss out what they are saying.. so I must have an interpreter. It's good for u to have one. It's ridiculous when they say they can't afford. I'm surprised.. When I had speech therapist she knows a lil signs but she doesn't interprete me.

I saw some of the video of olson brothers. pretty cool. I ll have to watch some more. Know what?! Mathew are starting to lie to me and take advantage of my hearing!!! Last nite, he said I can't hear the music (i wasnt wear implant)and I cked. It was loud. He laughed. OOOH I was soo mad. I told him that don't ever do that to ur mother and think its funny that I can't hear! His dad was pissed!